We usually try to fill it.

I got home from work and was ready to head to the local yarn shop - lots of excuses, even though I had just been there last night...

They were closed, so I drove to another one.

They were closed.

I turned on the radio in the car and found myself so irritated by everything that was on, so I turned it off.

And I realized, that just as I was trying to use the radio to fill silence, I was on a hunt to fill that empty space in my soul with stuff.

Good stuff, mind you.

After all, a yarn addict can never have too much good yarn, especially when it has a use in mind...

But I got the message.

Perhaps this empty space in the depths of my being just need to be left alone.

Perhaps, I am to sit next to it, as a friend with the heart of a learner, open to what that space has to say to me.

I spend so much time trying to fill in the holes in my life, trying to make it all look like its working for me.

But it isn't working for me.

So I will sit with the emptiness and accept it's role as teacher.

Can I be honest?

I'm not a very enthusiastic student.